Two Appointments in one week

Last week was a very eventful week with two doctor appointments and two ultrasounds. Sunday night, Mikie woke up sick with a stomach virus. He was not able to go the appointment with us on Monday. He hardly ever gets sick but you know he is feeling really bad if he skips a doctors appointment. Makayla (Mikies little sister) stayed the night with us on Sunday. I invited her to go with us to the doctor to hear the heartbeats. Her whole face lit up with a huge smile when I asked her. Her and I pulled into the parking lot at the same time that Jade did. I normally wear yoga pants and a tshirt to the doctor but for some reason I dressed up. Jade lives in yoga pants and workout tanks but she had dressed up as well. It is so funny how much her and I do some of the same things at the same time. We went into the room and got ready for Dr. Kim to come in. Mikie told Makayla to video the entire appointment. I have to cut my video shorts because they won't post if they are too long. Dr. Kim comes in and begins doing the ultrasound and I couldn't believe my eyes. My baby girls had little nubs for arms and legs. They were waving and moving all around. Makayla went into shock because she couldn't believe what she was seeing either. Ha! Dr. Kim teased Jade and asked her if she ate any sugar. She said she ate a bowl of fruity pebbles. All I could think about is how I wished Mikie was seeing all this but then I remembered Makayla was video recording the entire thing. They informed Jade she could stop taking the estrogen pills but needed to continue taking the progesterone inserts...or as Jade calls them "coochie pills" lol. The nurse said that next Monday would be our last appointment. I wanted to cry when she said that. It will be an emotional day for me. I know you go to a specialist with the anxious day of "graduating" to an OB but I've grown way too close to Dr. Kim and his staff. I think it would have been easier to walk away if I would have stayed pregnant the first or second time. The truth is our journey took much longer to get to our ultimate goal. I'm very excited that our pregnancy is moving forward but I don't want to leave them. A part of me wants to fall to the floor and throw a fit until Dr. Kim says, "Ok, I'll deliver your baby." Ha! But unfortunately he won't be able to. It won't be a goodbye but more like, I will see you later. I know they will come see our babies in the hospital, they follow our blog and facebook page, and they plan on coming to our benefit. It is just so hard to let go when I've grown so attached to all of them. Dr. Kim and his staff have treated us like family and have felt every emotion we have felt during the journey. When I showed up at an appointment in tears, you could see the tears forming in their eyes. Dr. Kim successfully helped us make our dreams reality and we will never be able to thank him enough. If you are reading this blog and know that you need to see a specialist but havent....I highly recommend you to call Dr. Kim at Houston Fertility Specialist. He will help your dreams become reality and he will be by your side through it all. I recently had a friend go for her consultation with him. She loved him and I was so glad she did. I brag about him all the time but you won't truly understand how wonderful he is until you meet him.

We got home from the appointment and showed Mikie the video Makayla took of the appointment. He smiled ear to ear as he watched it and couldn't believe how much they had grown.

Tuesday was our first OB appointment. Mikie was still not feeling well and we didn't want to risk the chance of him passing anything to Jade so I went alone. Some of you know that Ryan lost his job at the end of May due to the oil industry. He lost insurance coverage and has been waiting on the packet for cobra insurance. Jade called me Tuesday to inform me that the doctor visit was going to cost 481.00. She asked if I needed to cancel or did I still want to go. I told her that I would pay out of pocket.  I met Jade in a store parking lot and carpooled with her, Ryan, and Hayden. We parked in the parking garage but got a little lost trying to find the doctors office. We arrived just on time to check in. I paid for the visit and we waited to be called back. While in the waiting room, Ryan called to find out about the cobra insurance. They emailed him a form and we have until August to fill it out. To cover Jade only it will cost about 600.00/month....ouch!! One of the stipulations in the surrogate contract is about insurance coverage. Mikie and I are responsible to get her insurance until Ryan gets another job or pay out of pocket for everything. As my head is exploding with thoughts, the nurse calls us back. I push everything to the back of my head and concentrate on the appointment. The doctor comes in to meet us and to do the first ultrasound. During the ultrasound, Baby B was being "stubborn" as she called. I laughed to myself and thought..hmm she will be like her momma. I asked her a million questions and she took her time to answer them all. She wasn't in a rush and was very sweet. I was pleased with Jade's choice in doctor. The doctor will not let Jade go past 38 weeks; therefore, the baby girls will be here Jan 8th or sooner. Dr. Tejml also stated that our appointments will be every 3 weeks and we would get an ultrasound at every appointment. Once Jade reaches a certain spot in her pregnancy then we will switch to every week. For the anatomy scan, we will be sent to a high risk doctor because of them being twins. The doctor believes that will be our only appointment we have with a high risk doctor if every thing else goes smoothly. After meeting with the doctor, we met with the financial lady. We went over options of paying out of pocket versus cobra insurance. She spoke with us for a while and helped us analyze it all. My head wanted to explode and I wanted to burst in tears with stress. At that point, all I wished for was for Mikie to be there. He has a way to make all situations seem okay. I stress alot about money and I mean ALOT. You would think that I grew up really poor or something. I'm so cheap and hate to spend money. I mean don't get me wrong...I'll shop and do some stuff but I'm still cheap. My mom teases me saying that I squeak when I walk and Mikie says I act like we live penny to penny. I can't help it...I've always been this way. Ryan feels horrible because he is the one who lost his job but it wasn't something he could control. We know he will find another job and get insurance but we have to be prepared for the worse. After the appointment, we all went to lunch before heading home.

I told Mikie all about the appointment and we talked about the finances. He could tell I had been crying. He comforted me and told me that everything will work out. He gets stressed about it a little but he has a way to hide his stress from me. He would go work 10 jobs if he had to. I love how hard he works for our family. Prior to getting home, I ended up bawling my eyes out to my mom about everything. I think all the stress got to me and became over whelming. Of course she always has a way to calm me down and constantly reminds me that all of this will be worth it. She tells me all the time that these days won't matter to me when I'm holding my babies. She is correct but I still carry the stress on my shoulders. I'm so blessed to have two babies on the way but none of this is easy. You truly don't understand what couples go through financially when it comes to fertility. Most couples hock their house, cars, and anything else they have. We've been blessed to get the money without doing all that but we still have to pay it back. I don't understand why insurance won't help cover the expenses we've gone through.. its a joke and so frustrating.

 We are looking into an individual insurance plan for Jade. It is alot cheaper than cobra and we should know more about it next week.

 We've been hanging up flyers for the benefit that will be held on August 15th. We've had several friends take flyers to hang up as well. If you want a flyer or a copy of it, let me know. I can drop some off or email you a copy of it to print out. We will have raffle tickets to sell in a few weeks. There will be a live auction, bounce house for kids, and  BBQ plates will be sold. You can contact Joy, Jade, Kristina, or myself if you would like to donate an auction item or meat for the BBQ plates. We've received alot of items and will continue to collect items up until the day of the benefit. Again, Mikie and I will never be able to thank you all for the support. Our little girls are being LOVED already.

Last week was exciting and stressful but I know everything will work out. I'm keeping my eyes on the prizes and everything else will fall into place. I want to thank all of you for continued support and love. We still have the BEST support system ever. All of the support means a ton to us.

I have the BEST surro mom ever. I couldn't imagine any other woman carrying my children. We have great communication with each other on every subject. She is still feeling nauseous but overall is doing well. Mikie and I will never be able to thank her enough for helping make our dreams reality. 

My little sister and I on the way to the doctor on Monday. She is so excited to become an Aunt again. I know our babies will be so spoiled by her. 

For Father's Day, my father and I went on a road trip to Golden Nugget in Louisiana in his corvette. He is like a 16 year old boy in his corvette. We had a great time and it reminded me alot of my younger days in his old corvette. I also kept thinking about our relationship and how excited I am for my girls to have him as a Papa. They will be wrapped around his finger just like me. I also couldn't help but think about my girls having the same bond with Mikie as I do my dad. Mikie will truly understand the meaning "daddy's little girl". :) 

I feel like myself again....I'm BLONDE again. Yay! 

Our two babies!!! :) Look at those little arms and legs. :) 

My best friend and I supporting a hero named Jace who is flying high in heaven with his sister. I know his family misses him so much but he is one handsome guardian angel. 

I get to call this handsome boy my nephew. He is wearing the new onesie I got him. Dont make me call my Aunt. Ha! I love him! 

Blessed Times Two

Every week we continue to get good reports. The baby girls hearts are beating at a great pace. The sound is absolutely beautiful. I wish you all could see my husband's face during the appointments..  it is priceless. He is extremely happy and each appointment brings reassurance that this is REAL. I'm still not going to lie, we continue to walk on egg shells. We will feel much more relieved when we get out of the first trimester or heck when the babies are born. Jade didn't make it to eight weeks with twins on her last surrogacy...BUT this time she has. She did mention that another surro mom lost a twin at 10 weeks. We are staying hopeful that our baby girls continue to grow. One is measuring 8 weeks and the other is measuring 8 weeks 2 days. I have faith that they will continue to grow but we have to know that anything can happen. Mikie and I have agreed on two beautiful names. I cannot wait to announce them to everyone. I want to wait until we are in the safe zone.

I picked up my precious niece on Friday night to spend the weekend with us. It has been over a month since she has come to stay. We stayed on the move literally all weekend long. Saturday morning we went to my cousin's nail salon party. Audrina got her toes and fingers nails painted. She loved hanging out with the "big" girls. We went to lunch with all of them afterwards. When we were leaving in the car she said, "Auntie, I like your friends." It was so cute. We went to see my mother in law and she met my best friend Kristina and my nephew Hutch. She absolutely loves babies. She had to hold him and kept saying how cute he was. Sunday we had Hutch's baptism, baptism party, and I promised her we would go swimming. She was so good in church until the end she blurted out, "I need to go poop." Lol. After church and the party we went to my mother in laws house to swim. It was so neat to see how my mother in law was with her in the pool. She doesn't normally do these types of things but adores Audrina. Mikie and I smiled and asked, "Are you ready for two of these?" Lol. I don't think any of us are fully prepared for two at once. I know once they get here it will be different but I'm so nervous. I had Audrina practice the names we picked out. She said they are her baby cousins/sisters. Ha! I do have to say that Audrina holds a very special spot in our heart. She has taught us so much about parenting, love, life, and how to be patient. She will always be the first little girl who stole our heart. She has prepared us for our own children and will always hold a special spot in our hearts. We sure will miss her when she moves in August but we are so happy for her and her mother.

Jade is still having the same symptoms. She has to eat small meals and eat more often. She isnt showing that much but does have a little pudge. She was out swimming today and asked her family " Do I look pregnant?" They responded, "No you just look bloated." Jade said, "Dammit, I hate that in between stage where you just look fat." Bahahaha. We did find out on Friday that her OB has moved to Friendswood. We keep hitting little bumps in the road with cobra insurance to OB moving. I keep reminding myself that things could be worse and at least we still have our baby girls. It wouldn't be a  Fisher journey if there weren't a few bumps in the road. Jade was completely heart broken. I posted asking for reviews on OB doctors.

1. Jade wants a female
2. Jade wants a doctor who doesn't jump to c-section immediately just because she is pregnant with twins.
3. The doctor must deliver in a level 3 NICU hospital. (Our contract specifies that)

We got great reviews from our post but ran into a few problems. They either had a long wait period to get in, doctor doesn't deliver in a level 3 NICU center, and they want records and have to approve her. We decided to call back the same clinic her doctor left and schedule with another doctor there. The doctor we chose is one who filled in for Jade's old doctor a few times. We get to meet her on tuesday, June 23rd. I can't believe we are already getting to see an OB. I told Dr. Kim "I'm so sad we are going to be leaving soon. Are you sure you don't want to deliver my baby?" I love our doctor so much and hate to leave his office. The nurses and receptionist have become our friends and family. I can't believe we've been there over a year.

So, next week we go to fertility clinic on Monday and OB on Tuesday. I hope Jade likes the OB and everything goes smooth. Thank you again to you all for your continues support, love, and prayers. We are so lucky to have all of you by our side throughout this journey. I started speaking out about my journey for therapy and healing for myself, to let others know they aren't alone, and to help others reach out about their journey. I've had several people I know reach out to me about their struggle with fertility. I've had others reach out to my friends. I urge all of you to reach out to someone. Its a tough journey but sometimes you need someone else to talk to besides your spouse. I can tell Mikie anything, cry on his shoulder, scream in his face, or whatever and he continues to be by my side...but sometimes I need a friend or mom to talk to. You need the same if you are struggling. Dont be ashamed of your journey....YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Don't be ashamed if you told yourself that you would never do IVF or IUI if it came down to it. I said the same thing but you never truly know what you would do until you are faced with it. I don't regret any of the money I've spent, the tears I've shed, the weight I gained, the number of transfers I did, etc. I have a dream and a goal to be a mommy and I would do it all over again. Never give up!!! You don't want to live with the "what ifs".

Mikie and I at the pool with our little niece. Crazy to think that we will soon have family pictures with two Baby girls! 

Baby B

Baby A

All dressed in her fourth of July dress. 

Its hard work being a princess

Hayden graduated prek. I love this picture because my baby girls are in it too. The Ohl family will forver be apart of the Fisher family. 

Baby A and Baby B 

Hutch's baptism. I was one proud Aunt on Sunday. 

Aunties two little babies. I love these two to pieces. 

The Most Beautiful Sound

I feel so bad for not updating my blog. Its been a busy week and I'm so exhausted by the time I think about updating it.

Last Monday was the most beautiful sound my ears have ever heard. We got to hear the heart beats of Baby A and Baby B. Baby A beat at 113 and Baby B beat at 117. I couldn't believe my ears and eyes. I was listening and watching my baby girls hearts beat. It brought tears to my eyes. I never thought the day would come that I would ever witness this. Everyone keeps asking if we are excited. The truth is we aren't as excited as we should be. We've been through so many ups and downs. We didn't want to get too excited and then something happen. Each day though it sinks in a little more and more. Mikie smiled ear to ear the whole way to the car. He kept saying "Babe we are going to be parents!" It really hit him that day but we still walk on egg shells. I think we will officially jump for joy when we get out of the first trimester. The only good thing about IVF is that we get weekly ultrasounds. If we would have gotten pregnant naturally then we wouldn't get to witness our babied grow from such a tiny seed. Yesterday marked 7 weeks pregnant for Jade. Our babies are now the size of blueberries. We also know that there is a slight chance that we could only end up with one. All the appointments are going very well and the babies are growing at the same pace. We still have to be prepared for anything since we aren't pass the "safe" zone. We have talked and both said that we will be thrilled with twins and thrilled with one. Our ultimate goal is just to be parents. Boy or Girl. Twins or One. All we want is for a tiny human being to be ours that call us "mommy and daddy".

We've been throwing names back and forth to each other. The only thing we have 100% agreed on is the middle names. My Nanny passed away two years ago. She was a woman that I always looked up to and loved so much. Her middle name is "Faye" and we have decided to use her middle name for one of our baby girl's middle name. Mikie has a grandmother who passed away more than 10 years ago. She loved and adored Mikie as if he was her own son. She spoiled him rotten and always cooked him his favorite food. I never got to meet her but heard nothing but good things. Her middle name was "Avis" and we have decided to use her middle name for the other baby girl. I think it will be so neat that they both have their great grandmother's middle names. We have a few first names but I keep changing my mind. I will decide soon and leave it but probably after the first trimester. I'm ready to get monogrammed items! :)

We decided to go ahead and pick dates for the baby showers. Time is flying by and before you know it the babies will be here. Jade rented a book from the library about twin pregnancy. It told her that we should do the baby showers between 24 and 30 weeks pregnant. For my wedding we did three different showers. I work 70 miles from home, my home town is 30 miles from Sealy, and now we live in Sealy. We decided to do three baby showers; therefore, no one has to drive far. It looks like October and November will be booked with showers. I'm so excited! :)

Jade is starting to feel more pregnancy symptoms. She is ready to take on the twin challenge because everyone has doubted her. She knows she is little and tiny but she said she can DO IT! I think this past week has been rough for her. Her symptoms haven't ever been this strong before. I'm sure deep inside she is a little scared. She told me she has gained more weight. I can't help but get excited about all her symptoms and weight gain. I'm telling her "grow belly, grow belly". When her husband sends me pictures of her feeling bad I can't help but think..."Thank God that isn't me". I don't know that I could handle all that. I give all you pregnant women props! It's pretty crazy how I get some of her pregnancy symptoms. She will call about a crazy dream and sure enough I had one too. She told me how exhausted she was on Sunday and sure enough I slept all day Sunday. It is crazy how I'm having sympathy pregnancy symptoms. Lol. I also can't help but be so thankful for her. She has one of the biggest hearts that I know. She has opened her heart and helped make my dream reality. I get teary eyes just writing that. I will never be able to thank her enough. No matter how much money we are paying her or how many times I tell her thank you...it won't ever be enough. Like my mom said...Jade will forever be apart of our family. She will be Auntie Jade to our beautiful girls. We are so lucky and blessed.

On Tuesday, my hubby and I celebrated three years of marriage. I can't believe we have been together for a total of 9 years. I never thought 9 years ago we would get married and have kids. He always told me that he would never get married and never have kids. He changed his mind fast and wanted both. I mean I am pretty amazing...Why wouldn't he want to marry me and have kids. Lol. It is crazy to think we met at crawfish boil and exchanged numbers at Beasley Bash. We both have changed alot and I look forward to spending another 100 years together. He is my ROCK, my best friend, my biggest supporter, best teammate, and greatest husband. He spoils me rotten with his love. Unfortunately, I got sick on our anniversary. I came down with a cold and came home early from work. I slept from 2pm until 7pm. I came home to the sweetest card and gorgeous roses. I woke up to dinner cooked and served on the table. In the middle of the night our AC broke. I told him we would never forget this anniversary. Lol. Luckily we got the AC fixed and it was all covered under warranty. Everyone teased us about enjoying our last anniversary in peace and quiet. Next year when we celebrate 4 years; we will be a family of four. We both cannot wait.

We go back to the doctor on Monday for another ultrasound. I look forward to Mondays and seeing our baby girls. I want to thank all of you for your continued support, prayers, and love. We have the best support team ever. My babies are so loved already.

If you haven't yet go to facebook at look up Team Baby Fisher. We posted videos of the heart beat and we update the page pretty often.

Please keep my friend in your prayers. She went through IVF and transferred two babies in her surro mom. We need all the prayers we can get for them. It is their second round and we hope that their dreams come true. They get results next week!

My handsome hubby and I at our cousin's gender reveal party. 

Love my Hayden! 

My beautiful roses. My husband says "You know how stupid they look at me when I say I need pink roses for an anniversary" I hate red roses with a passion. They are so ugly. I love pink roses. He gets me a dozen pink roses and has them put a white rose for each year we've been married. There are three white roses but the other two are in the back. 

Our beautiful diaper cake that Aunt Bev made us. 

Happy 3 years to my hubby. 

Today we celebrated these two. I cohosted their gender reveal party. They are having a BOY! 

One of our baby girls from last week's ultrasound

A beautiful bracelet that I received in the mail from one of our supporter. Thank you again Jennifer Gillen for this gorgeous bracelet. 

We ended 2014 with a wish that our dreams would become reality in 2015. Here we are in 2015 and we are future mommies. She is having a BOY. 

My handsome nephew this past weekend. He is such a Ham! 

Our sweet friend and supporter Treva Bialas bought our girls all of these goodies. 

Treva had her talented sister in law make us some cute and delicious cookies. 

Love my Hutchy poo. 

Love my best friend Kristina. We had a naked party at the spray tan place. We love Tropical Haven and the owner. She is such a sweetheart!